Friday, September 23, 2011

Sweet, Beautiful Emeline...

It is that time of year.  
Our sweet, beautiful Emeline would have been 4 years old today.  So hard to imagine, and trying to do so brings such pain.  
Four years ago, I was giving birth to my first child.  A sweet blessing that my husband and I thought would be happening years down the road.  Our plan wasn't His plan.  We were "planning" to wait four years before having children; yet, the Lord changed our lives, our hearts, our world on September 23, 2007.  Even though we would only hold our precious Emeline for 7 perfect weeks, our lives would never be the same.

I never imagined being a mother at the young age of husband 25.
I never imagined I would be trading in my car for a 24.
I never imagined I would be preparing to give 24.
And, I never imagined how precious life 24.

Everyday, I am reminded that this is not our home...and how I long for that day to see my Lord and Savior and to hold our sweet Emeline again.  This song by Laura Story has weighed on my heart as this "season" begins of remembering Emeline.  From September through November, the days are harder, filled with so many memories.  It's an aching, a hurt that can't be filled or replaced by anything.  But, sometimes the blessings in life do come through raindrops...they come in ways we would never imagine...but, only because sometimes it is through the pain, the tears that we truly see Him and know that He is near.  We will never understand loss, hurt, pain...but, our family can say that He has been faithful, He has renewed our spirits and has poured out His mercies upon us morning by morning.

"What if the aching of this life is the revealing of a greater thirst 
this world cannot satisfy...
 What if trials of this life are Your mercies in disguise."

Happy 4th Birthday, sweet Emeline Ruth.

"The steadfast love of the Lord never ceases, 
His mercies never come to an end.  
They are new every morning; Great is Thy Faithfulness." 
Lamentations 3:22-23


elaine said...

Beautiful words. So much love and so many prayers during this season.

Jynne Stowe said...

Love you so much...this brought many tears to my is a time of remembrance...of where the Lord took us and where He brought us...beautifully written Sis

Mary Ann said...

Christy - You've shared your feelings so beautifully and given a wonderful witness as well. My love to you and Aaron.

Christy said...

@ Elaine, thank you, friend...i wouldn't have made it to this point w/o you.
@ Jynne, i know we are all remembering exactly what you said, where the Lord took us and where He has brought you SO are one amazing Aunt and Sis:)
@ Mary Ann, thank you for your kind words! i pray that the Lord shines through my inadequate words:) Will give your love to Aaron:) And much love to you!

Cookie Crumbs (cookiecrums123) said...

Such a beautiful and loving post! Thinking of you and your family during this time of remembrance.

Lisa B said...

It is an honor to remember, cry and smile with you. Thank you for sharing your faith - sweet and strong. Thank you for being such a wonderful mom to my you!!

Christy said...

@ Jamie, thank you:) We really appreciate it:) Your words have been so kind over the past 4 years! Hope you and your sweet boys are doing well!
@ Lili, we share this time together...thank you for your words, your heart and love to our family! Much love!