It is that time of year.
Our sweet, beautiful Emeline would have been 4 years old today. So hard to imagine, and trying to do so brings such pain.
Four years ago, I was giving birth to my first child. A sweet blessing that my husband and I thought would be happening years down the road. Our plan wasn't His plan. We were "planning" to wait four years before having children; yet, the Lord changed our lives, our hearts, our world on September 23, 2007. Even though we would only hold our precious Emeline for 7 perfect weeks, our lives would never be the same.
I never imagined being a mother at the young age of 24...my husband 25.
I never imagined I would be trading in my car for a minivan...at 24.
I never imagined I would be preparing to give birth...at 24.
And, I never imagined how precious life is...at 24.
Everyday, I am reminded that this is not our home...and how I long for that day to see my Lord and Savior and to hold our sweet Emeline again. This song by Laura Story has weighed on my heart as this "season" begins of remembering Emeline. From September through November, the days are harder, filled with so many memories. It's an aching, a hurt that can't be filled or replaced by anything. But, sometimes the blessings in life do come through raindrops...they come in ways we would never imagine...but, only because sometimes it is through the pain, the tears that we truly see Him and know that He is near. We will never understand loss, hurt, pain...but, our family can say that He has been faithful, He has renewed our spirits and has poured out His mercies upon us morning by morning.
Happy 4th Birthday, sweet Emeline Ruth.
And, I never imagined how precious life is...at 24.
Everyday, I am reminded that this is not our home...and how I long for that day to see my Lord and Savior and to hold our sweet Emeline again. This song by Laura Story has weighed on my heart as this "season" begins of remembering Emeline. From September through November, the days are harder, filled with so many memories. It's an aching, a hurt that can't be filled or replaced by anything. But, sometimes the blessings in life do come through raindrops...they come in ways we would never imagine...but, only because sometimes it is through the pain, the tears that we truly see Him and know that He is near. We will never understand loss, hurt, pain...but, our family can say that He has been faithful, He has renewed our spirits and has poured out His mercies upon us morning by morning.
"What if the aching of this life is the revealing of a greater thirst
this world cannot satisfy...
What if trials of this life are Your mercies in disguise."
Happy 4th Birthday, sweet Emeline Ruth.
"The steadfast love of the Lord never ceases,
His mercies never come to an end.
They are new every morning; Great is Thy Faithfulness."
Lamentations 3:22-23